In the dream, I was screaming frustratingly at a class of students who just didn't see the point of being there. I kept pausing my lecture to throw yet another wandering, inattentive student into the hallway. The parts I remember consisted of: you get to come to school for FREE, you need money to have power, you need education to get money, and you're wasting your FREE access to that opportunity.
I woke up right after saying something about how the amount of pay you earn is commensurate with the level of respect others hold for your work.
I woke up agitated.
Last year really tainted me (on another note, I think it's so fun to throw the word "taint" in as often as you can... a la Stephen Colbert). Four years of absolutely loving my job, and now anger. I really need this new school year to be better.
So then, browsing through my RSS feed just this morning (after not being able to fall back to sleep, due in part to my agitation and in part to my husband's brief bout of snoring), I read this, from eSchool News:
- Now I'm even more agitated, because everything there is true, but nobody cares. Nobody (outside of educators) will read that, and nobody will change their minds. Thanks for trying.
- As a teacher, I get very little respect. From other professionals, from students, from administrators, and (perhaps most telling) from the "People in Charge."
- I'm having trouble continuing to believe that it's worth it.
That is all.